The true test for a T girl is not the makeup, the dress, and the heels she wears, nor the boob job and sex reassignment surgery she has endured. It is how she carries herself in both her private and public life, and ultimately that seems to be the benchmark of her acceptance into womanhood.
So we've been told many times.
We can drape ourselves in Chanel, Prada, and Dior, or get a C-cup or a double D, but does it make a T girl feminine enough? The artifice captivates the public, our audience, our admirers. But deep inside do we T girls care how people perceive us based on our looks alone?
How many times have you been captivated by a T girl's beauty in still photographs only to be disappointed when she begins to act and open her mouth? No I don't mean this in that way, but isn't it a turnoff to hear her speak like an unintelligible man or to see her act brutishly? Where do we draw the line between being a man and being a woman as a T girl?
Growing up, we've been told and taught many times that being a girl means doing girly stuff, and being a boy means engaging in boyish stuff. There is a clear delineation of how one should act based on gender alone, and crossing over gender lines makes you "queer."
Since I was a child, I have always been aware of the differences of the two dominant genders. Frankly, I could careless if I straddled both lines on the sly. I would wear boy's clothes but then I would act very girly. Thank God for my high self-awareness, I knew what I was doing. If I got punished for it, I took full responsibility for my action. And I wouldn't apologize for it.
Now that I'm older and happily living in a body I'm more comfortable with, I question how it is being transgender in a society. Should I act like a woman? Do I entirely disregard my biological masculine inclination? Or must T girls erase all preconceived notions of being transsexual and completely reinvent ourselves?
These are legitimate inquiries which have no definitive answers, unfortunately. We are evolving as a civilized society with set of mores, codes, and rules changing over time slowly. Values may stay the same but of course change is the only constant in this world.
I long for the day when transgender can be a whole new category, a different box you can check when filling out a form. In time but for now, perhaps, you should reconsider your thoughts and notions about T girls - because frankly I'm not that girl. And in my Choos, nothing is what it seems.
